to be home again

to be home again in small ways and large can home be returned to after childhood gone and parental demise is that home or is it a illusion, a detention center of ones youth, the place that one spends ones life recovering from, the trenches is one forever to return to a past. that long ago is gone forever looking backward as though it is a cup of tea well drank and all is left but tea leaves that one would study and divine and in them find the answer of what did happen in that home amongst that past, is it the future we divine or is that past that we wish to exorcise and replace what answer will be found in black teas leaves from faraway land what answer will be found in past long ago times may be what is a home and where is it.