unsettling disturbia

I SAW MY FIRST SHADOW PRESON A FEW WEEKS AGO. AFTER I HAD EMERGENCY SURGERY. i NEVER REALLY BELIEVED THEY existed and thought that people who saw them were panicked or hysterics. But I was calm and smoking a cigarette on my porch<> near death just made me want to smoke and eat more as though my addictions figured out that I was not immortal. but that happens every time I am facing death from various botched surgeries at the VA. Well the shadow startled me but I stood my ground as the being was across the street and when it left I Hightailed it up to my ritual room/ meditation room. then I felt bone chilling fear. But I figure they are a force of nature and if they ignored me then I will do the same with them.